200708 至少你懂..

20days since my last post, many things happen during these days.. new workscope, new workplace, new life..

Finally I had made up my mind to put down this long dragging story behind, she had given me an answer indirectly~ I really wish her xin fu. Do take care... and don't hurt yourself in any way when you meet any difficulties in future..


不能在一起也没关系 至少你懂我的心 会在想你
那些回忆会永远保持甜蜜
不管未来你会在哪里 我都不会忘记 我爱你
你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比从前开心。。。

300608 to her -- to think through....

New posting for my work, going to the site for the next 6mths to gain site experience. Every new job has new challenges, site work does too. At site is more about dealing with the contractors and workers whilst at office is more on meeting the deadlines. Can expect more coffee breaks and lesser OTs, but it won't be a slack period for me, these times will be the best time for me to read up on design books and get ready for my next embarkment to the design office..

Out of Office means I won't be seeing her much often. She told me this is also the time to let myself to think whether I should continue to like her.. I'm puzzled~ you mean you still can't feel I'm serious? I told her is not only my own decision. I had always know well about my feelings, no matter where am I (be it Malacca, Genting, Bangkok, Fri to Sun will be KL), I will always think of her and hope to see her well. I should say this is the time to let herself think thorougly on what she wants to do next. I guess my presence throughout the past months had not been able to let her have a clear mind.. Leaving the office is a better choice~

我恨我爱你... this song really sings out our feelings when we love the person we shouldn't had loved. Highly recommended to people who had just gone out of love, people who had faced rejection and people who dare not confess to the one he/she love and in the end too late.. My best friend PADI, we will stand by you!!!

190608 KPI Review.

Had my KPI review for the past 1 year, lasted 2hrs n I guess is consider damn long. WTH.. Felt that my sup gave me quite a high rating, during the review I was being asked whether my interest is in building design.. I hesitated a while before answering a 'yes'.. My interest is design, but not building~ My goal never change, I hope to be in the offshore line, but also trust that the things I'm learning now will help me a lot to build up my career in future. Design sense can be moulded in many ways, building design is a way but maybe slower.... I shall see... Guys and Gals any gd lobangs must intro to me ya~ haha.

I wan a break from my work!! Long time no take leave le, planning to go for a short trip but damn, no one wans to confirm where and when they are free, I foresee the earliest will be 3rd week of July then can see myself out of Spore.

Felt better these days~ Maybe I came to realise love is not perfect.. It comes and goes without you knowing. Cherish the one you love, but don't put it aside and take for granted that is will be lasting, you never know when the one will be gone and you will live with regrets. Crush is not love, love is not crush, when someone falls deep into love, he/she will always put each other in their minds and heart. Can't live without each other~ Give yourself time to realise whether you are in love, if u r and is mutual then secure it. May all true love be true and lasting~

120608 it continues..

Slowly I'm able to see the tunnel to the end of my 2year project - School of The Arts. Ever since I stepped into the company, I had been in the project. My direct sup also finally has a smile on his face with a sense of relieve. He told me "If you can work well in this project, the rest of the projects are chicken". After hearing this got a bit surprised and wonder if this means my experience up one level higher? But I feel that I'm still not up to the standard. Will try harder..

Last night may be sweet, but how long will this last, 1day, 1week or maybe just an illusion, we both know we still like each other but I still feel she yet to have the commitment. Like the song~ Only Heaven Knows.. Moving on may still be the better choice... I don't need her to let me be her number 2. I will treat her as my number 1, want her to do the same to me too.. Now just have to see fate and how she cherish the feelings we have. Weekend is here yet again....

090608 1st Blog~

Blogging may help me to say out all my complains, yet i won't disturb anyone to be my listening ear and thinking hard of what things to console me.

As usual work is always quite stagnant and routine, listening phone calls and attending meetings are just parts and parcels of my everyday work, designing structure and being my supervisor 'secretary'.. Sounds interesting but I can't find the 'path' inside the work, I don't wish to be a 'working machine', thats y I want to move on, move on to somewhere where I can see prospect in my career..

Today I finally found out what's the big deal on the 6th of every month~ I'm tired, not sure how long more can I take.. I hate the feeling of Procrastination.. Able to stand by her side is just my wishful thinking. We went through a lot, gave her a lot, but all end up hurting ourselves.. Maybe I'm the one who has the most hurt. We gave each other 心动 once and she gave me the most 心痛 feeling.. I hate listening to sad songs, songs that bring our memories back.. We shouldn't have started to show our feelings to each other so fast when she is still unsure.. I don't blame her at all, I just have to face the fact and move on. Till this point of time, she is still the most important person in my life.. I hope she will be as xin fu and the smile on her face is always there when we 1st met..